he wrote 'sorry i abandoned you yesterday'
i responded 'you didn't abandon me'
he said 'yea a little... i was with my family all day and i didn't talk to you as much as i wanted to...'

[begin rant]

after he said that i was thinking 'if you even wanted to talk to me, why didn't you just send me a text that said hi or something?!' i'm kind of over this situation with him. to me... if he really likes me then there would be a whole lot more communication. but nothing has changed. and it's like, why am i going after someone who thinks i'm wonderful.... but not enough to really show me!??! i don't want that in a relationship. i want to be pursued and loved and treated like i'm the most important person. so why... if i crave this... am i selling myself short????? and then...

why do we, as women, try and try and try to win the attention and affirmation and love from a guy who is either uniterrested or half into it...
but when there are guys who genuinly think the world of you and love everything about you... we don't grab onto it?!?!?!???
i am so confused as to how and why i am like this! i mean... i am really baffled right now by this ridiculous emotional roller coaster i put myself through when it's basically being handed to me from someone else.

[end rant]

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the end.